This "Knock Knock" Was No Joke
Wed., Mar. 7. 2007 3:31pm EST
Recently, after a concert in Ohio, a young woman shared with us that our song, "Who's There," a parody of the song "Loser" by Beck, held special meaning to her. We asked her if she would share that with us so we could share it with you:
I always believed in God even as a little girl but I thought for a very long time that God hated me. I always thought He enjoyed watching us suffer. I didn't know at that time He was a loving God. Now my parents have always been wonderful parents and taken good care of me growing up, but they couldn't take away the pain or questions of why grandma slowly died battling cancer for four years or why grandpa was drinking himself to death. Or my uncle was drinking, stealing, doing drugs etc.
These were just a few of the many things that made me wish I was dead, too. All this happened before I was a teenager. By the time Beck's "Loser" came out, I was a teenager and I felt alone. I didn't think I would live to see my 21st birthday let alone my 30th. I thought that no one would miss me even if I were to die anyway. I didn't think God valued our lives so why should I value mine. Little did I know at the time that "I was not cheap like a bird, now" or that he "Died and Rose for me."
I just wanted God to kill me like He killed the rest of my family. Please don't think that I ever tried to kill myself or that I ever got mixed up in drugs and alcohol because I didn't. It was just a feeling like I had no self worth and no purpose in life kind of attitude. I probably would have headed down that way had I not accepted Christ (in my early 20's) and learned the truth about God and slowly started to grow. Years later a friend of the family told me about you guys. She played a few songs and that was it. I was hooked.
Your music really spoke to my heart. I had bought several of your albums, but "Ticked" was not one of them. I didn't get that one until my first concert. Imagine my surprise to hear the song that I used to sing to God sung in a different light. I'd wanted God to kill me, so I sang " I'm a loser so why don't you kill me" to Him all the time. BUT then I heard your song! It really "flicked on my porch light" and showed me that my relatives and I where important to God.
Verses like "from your time of infancy Christ was a-knockin" showed me that from the time I was born I was important to God and "even after all the bad things I'd done that made me detestable" like turning away from him to do my own things AFTER becoming saved (did this for awhile) "God proved His love because He saved me anyhow". God has compassion and He loves my family and I. Wow! That was something new to me!
To hear that Jesus was "bangin' on my kitchen screen" refusing to give up on me was awesome! To learn that He was there all along waiting to fill the big hole that my grandparents death left in my heart was simply amazing to me. So as I sat there crying I sang to Him " I want you to save me, so why don't ya fill me?" Jesus healed me that day mending my broken heart and giving me closure on a sad part of my life. So this is how God used your song to reach me and why "Who's There?" is a special song to me. It's hard for me not to cry when I hear that song.
I hope this email encourages you to continue to allow the Lord to use you to reach others. You just never know what song God will use to reach out to someone. I know you must all have to make a great many sacrifices in order to tour around like you do, but please know that it is not done in vain. You are accomplishing your goals of reaching the lost and teaching the rest. I am proof of that. Yo! Got it!